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Hikaru no Go fanfic: Lines on a Go Board
Title: Lines on a Go Board (or 19 Things No One Ever Cared to Know About An Taeson)
Author: Miles
Fandom: Hikaru no Go
Rating: PG-13
Paring/Characters: An Taeson, Ko Yeong-ha, hints of An -> Ko
Summary: An Taeson begins to play baduk professionally the day before his thirteenth birthday. Implied slash, Character death, Experimental characterization.
Notes: Oh god, I don't even know. I wrote this in the shower and didn't actually feel like looking up Taeson's characterization besides what I could remember (i.e. not a lot). This is weird and experimental. I don't think I'll post this anywhere else. My first foray into this fandom (which I have lurked in for years now) and it's on a minor character who no one remembers. Baduk is Korean for Go.
1. An Taeson begins to play baduk professionally the day before his thirteenth birthday
2. This isn't so rare in Korea and there are no papers which scream his name in harsh block letter, merely a 1x1 square in an unpopular magazine which reads the new pros for the year. For him, it is not the becoming that is a challenge, but changing and everything beyond.
3. He doesn't think he has improved since then.
4. Only he must have because his match records show it, but it always feels like someone else
5. Kurata is a higher level player than him, An simply got lucky.
6. He isn't one for drama, life is more straight forward than that.
7. It used to be, that An was confident because he knew he was good, but good seems to be fazed out by better. Now he is confident because there is not much time left before he is obsolete and all he has in now.
8. At fifteen he has five sisters and no friends, he has never met anyone who understands his go.
9. An thinks that Ko Young-ha is arrogant, and smug, a bastard and perfect. Ko will always be what he wants to achieve.
10. Ko Young-ha says he's amazing, says he has talent, and breaths compliments into the shell of his ear. This is enough to power him through the coming year with a smile.
11. Then Hong Su-Yeong shows up, and An realizes it wasn't about him at all.
12. If Hong and Ko didn't exist he might be the best, but they do so he tries not to think that he never will.
13. It's not about notoriety, and he doesn't care about his place in the world, just so long as he can play.
14. But that holds true for everyone and doesn't make him special at all.
15. An thinks, Maybe I'll out live them all, maybe it will be me they talk about in thirty years, in fifty.
16. He doesn't.
17. An Taeson dies three weeks past his thirty-ninth birthday in a car crash on an empty street. With no witnesses save for the broken husk of a simpering driver (a girl, twenty one, with her whole life ahead of her) it is impossible to tell if it's a suicide.
18. He will never know how many people attend the funeral.
19. An opens up the a copy of an unpopular go magazine and flips through it idly, waiting for the train. The little shop is humid and the edges of the paper are warped wet with grime, tiny drops of sweat have dried on Ko Young-ha's maturing face and blurred Touya Akira's hair. The pages stick together on a colour spread and he doesn't have the nerve to pull them apart in case he is not there at all.
Author: Miles
Fandom: Hikaru no Go
Rating: PG-13
Paring/Characters: An Taeson, Ko Yeong-ha, hints of An -> Ko
Summary: An Taeson begins to play baduk professionally the day before his thirteenth birthday. Implied slash, Character death, Experimental characterization.
Notes: Oh god, I don't even know. I wrote this in the shower and didn't actually feel like looking up Taeson's characterization besides what I could remember (i.e. not a lot). This is weird and experimental. I don't think I'll post this anywhere else. My first foray into this fandom (which I have lurked in for years now) and it's on a minor character who no one remembers. Baduk is Korean for Go.
1. An Taeson begins to play baduk professionally the day before his thirteenth birthday
2. This isn't so rare in Korea and there are no papers which scream his name in harsh block letter, merely a 1x1 square in an unpopular magazine which reads the new pros for the year. For him, it is not the becoming that is a challenge, but changing and everything beyond.
3. He doesn't think he has improved since then.
4. Only he must have because his match records show it, but it always feels like someone else
5. Kurata is a higher level player than him, An simply got lucky.
6. He isn't one for drama, life is more straight forward than that.
7. It used to be, that An was confident because he knew he was good, but good seems to be fazed out by better. Now he is confident because there is not much time left before he is obsolete and all he has in now.
8. At fifteen he has five sisters and no friends, he has never met anyone who understands his go.
9. An thinks that Ko Young-ha is arrogant, and smug, a bastard and perfect. Ko will always be what he wants to achieve.
10. Ko Young-ha says he's amazing, says he has talent, and breaths compliments into the shell of his ear. This is enough to power him through the coming year with a smile.
11. Then Hong Su-Yeong shows up, and An realizes it wasn't about him at all.
12. If Hong and Ko didn't exist he might be the best, but they do so he tries not to think that he never will.
13. It's not about notoriety, and he doesn't care about his place in the world, just so long as he can play.
14. But that holds true for everyone and doesn't make him special at all.
15. An thinks, Maybe I'll out live them all, maybe it will be me they talk about in thirty years, in fifty.
16. He doesn't.
17. An Taeson dies three weeks past his thirty-ninth birthday in a car crash on an empty street. With no witnesses save for the broken husk of a simpering driver (a girl, twenty one, with her whole life ahead of her) it is impossible to tell if it's a suicide.
18. He will never know how many people attend the funeral.
19. An opens up the a copy of an unpopular go magazine and flips through it idly, waiting for the train. The little shop is humid and the edges of the paper are warped wet with grime, tiny drops of sweat have dried on Ko Young-ha's maturing face and blurred Touya Akira's hair. The pages stick together on a colour spread and he doesn't have the nerve to pull them apart in case he is not there at all.